Archive for March, 2010

It sucks to be sick

I was supposed to have an overnight retreat this weekend, I also got invited to a surprise party, and there is a barbecue at Labrador Park that I was invited to, but I unfortunately wasn’t able to go to any of those things because I am sick!

I have coughs and cold, I also feel so fatigued. My friend says it’s just stress, but I almost had a breakdown yesterday. I wanted to cry, shout, and throw a tantrum to my heart’s content but I just didn’t have the energy anymore.

I wanted to go to my parent’s house back in Manila and curl into a ball in my old room and be taken cared of by them. I wanted to hear the comforting sounds of my old house, the bustle in our kitchen, my mom doing her paperwork in the dining table, my dad watching television in the living room, my sister chatting on the phone, and our dog walking inside the house with her feet making soft padding sounds and clicks against our marble floor.

Instead, I am here in Singapore, inside my room, lying in my bed, resting and missing out in all the fun I could have had this weekend all because I am stressed, burned out and sick. It totally sucks.


Book: The Art of Racing In The Rain

Enzo knows he is different from other dogs: a philosopher with a nearly human soul (and an obsession with opposable thumbs), he has educated himself by watching television extensively, and by listening very closely to the words of his master, Denny Swift, an up-and-coming race car driver. Through Denny, Enzo has gained tremendous insight into the human condition, and he sees that life, like racing, isn’t simply about going fast. Using the techniques needed on the race track, one can successfully navigate all of life’s ordeals.

On the eve of his death, Enzo takes stock of his life, recalling all that he and his family have been through: the sacrifices Denny has made to succeed professionally; the unexpected loss of Eve, Denny’s wife; the three-year battle over their daughter, Zoë, whose maternal grandparents pulled every string to gain custody. In the end, despite what he sees as his own limitations, Enzo comes through heroically to preserve the Swift family, holding in his heart the dream that Denny will become a racing champion with Zoë at his side.

A heart-wrenching but deeply funny and ultimately uplifting story of family, love, loyalty, and hope, The Art of Racing in the Rain is a beautifully crafted and captivating look at the wonders and absurdities of human life…as only a dog could tell it.

I have had dogs all my life, and one thing I love about them is that they are TOTALLY DEVOTED to you. They love you unconditionally and will never leave you no matter what, unless of course when they die, which is always traumatic and depressing.

I especially love this book because it is Enzo the dog, who narrates the story. It is told from his point of view, it is often amusing, funny, heart-warming and sometimes sad. I have shed a tear and also laughed out loud (sometimes in public places) while reading this book. Enzo has arguments that man’s closest relative is not the chimpanzee but is in fact, the dog. With a dog’s devotion, love, compassion and protective instincts, I think Enzo might be right.

A line from the book, ” When I am racing, my mind and my body are working so quickly and well together, I must be sure not to think, or else, I will definitely make a mistake.”

“That which you manifest is before you”, one of Denny’s philosophies in racing and in life.

Oscar 2010

Oscar excerpts:

Mo’Nique, after winning the Best Supporting Actress Award for the movie “Precious”, talking to the press backstage,

“Everybody, and I don’t care who you are, or what crime you’ve committed, everybody deserves to be loved, even when they’re unlovable.”

In her most memorable line from “Precious, “Mo’Nique’s character asks, “Who else is going to love me? Who else is gonna make me feel good?”
In her acceptance speech, Mo’Nique offered thanks to Hattie McDaniel, she says, “I would like to thank Miss Hattie McDaniel, for enduring what she had to so that I would not have to.” Hattie McDaniel was the actress who became, in 1940, the first black to win an Oscar for the movie “Gone With The Wind”.

I loved those two things that she said.

“Precious” is a film based on the novel Push by author Sapphire starring Gabourey “Gabbie” Sidibe as a Harlem teenager who is pregnant with her second child and trying to overcome illiteracy and childhood abuse. After she is accepted to an alternative school and forms new relationships with a teacher and a nurse, she begins to feel hopeful about her future.


I was secretly rooting for Sandra Bullock to win the Best Actress Award, though I wasn’t really expecting for her to win as this was her first nomination. So I was pleasantly surprised to learn that she did. Her acceptance speech was both funny and touching, she also mentioned the words, “We are all deserving of love.”

I loved her movie, “The Blind Side”. Her performance there was so simple and real, and I want to say that I am fortunate enough to have in my life several people like that.

My favorite lines from that move are “I got your back.” and “All right, then..”. Watch it and you’ll know what I mean. I can actually write a review of the film here, but I’ll save it for later.

“The Blind Side” is the story of Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential. Oher’s presence in the Touhys’ lives leads them to some insightful self-discoveries of their own. Living in his new environment, the teen faces a completely different set of challenges to overcome. As a football player and student, Oher works hard and, with the help of his coaches and adopted family, becomes an All-American offensive left tackle.

Watch it.

Make like Kara DioGuardi

I find him cute and adorable, I wasn’t really into him till I watched this performance. I want to post this video here so I can watch him anytime. *swoon*

Ramblings_02 (Journal Entry 26 December 2008)

I have been living here in Singapore for the past the years and it is only now that I have the desire and time to start a journal.

So many things have happened to me the past three years. I don’t know where to begin telling you my story.

But on to more trivial things, as one friend told me, I’ve become sophisticated, hmmm, maybe I’ve just become more aware of how I look. I enjoy wearing nice clothes-but honestly, one has to be fit and slim to be able to wear the clothes perfectly. Some of you might disagree but I’m speaking from experience, I found out it is better to have a trim figure so one could wear anything perfectly and comfortably.

Another entry:

Emotional Anesthesia

I feel weird about some things and I wonder why. It has been several days already and I do not recognize this feeling. Did something happen that I haven’t really processed yet? Is there anything wrong with me? With my emotions? Or have I just hit plateau regarding my feelings? This is really strange and I do not understand it.

I’m sure looking back, if I read this entry several weeks or months from now, I will not have the faintest idea what this is about. This is what I’m feeling now, it’s a bit confusing and disorienting. It’s like going somewhere and not remembering why you were going there in the first place.

I actually enjoy this feeling, it’s a bit like feeling numb, indifferent, like you couldn’t care less. It’s like feeling nothing and not owning up to it. Feeling this way lessens the pain, hurt and confusion sometimes, maybe that’s why I like it.

Something definitely happened for me to feel this way. It’s like I have an emotional anesthesia. I feel numb and I like it.