Ramblings_02 (Journal Entry 26 December 2008)

I have been living here in Singapore for the past the years and it is only now that I have the desire and time to start a journal.

So many things have happened to me the past three years. I don’t know where to begin telling you my story.

But on to more trivial things, as one friend told me, I’ve become sophisticated, hmmm, maybe I’ve just become more aware of how I look. I enjoy wearing nice clothes-but honestly, one has to be fit and slim to be able to wear the clothes perfectly. Some of you might disagree but I’m speaking from experience, I found out it is better to have a trim figure so one could wear anything perfectly and comfortably.

Another entry:

Emotional Anesthesia

I feel weird about some things and I wonder why. It has been several days already and I do not recognize this feeling. Did something happen that I haven’t really processed yet? Is there anything wrong with me? With my emotions? Or have I just hit plateau regarding my feelings? This is really strange and I do not understand it.

I’m sure looking back, if I read this entry several weeks or months from now, I will not have the faintest idea what this is about. This is what I’m feeling now, it’s a bit confusing and disorienting. It’s like going somewhere and not remembering why you were going there in the first place.

I actually enjoy this feeling, it’s a bit like feeling numb, indifferent, like you couldn’t care less. It’s like feeling nothing and not owning up to it. Feeling this way lessens the pain, hurt and confusion sometimes, maybe that’s why I like it.

Something definitely happened for me to feel this way. It’s like I have an emotional anesthesia. I feel numb and I like it.


Things I learned today:

Pray for whatever you wish for and be honest about the reasons why you want it, however selfish the reason is.
Pray as if you have received it already.
Make right all your relationships with your family and everything will be easier.
Respond to situations, not just react.
Be in the moment, enjoy it. If you’re drinking coffee, just drink coffee and savor the taste.
You and everything around you are one.
Everything is one great big energy.
You are where you need to be.
Speak when you are angry & you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret.” ~ Dr. Laurence J. Pet
Be Humble or Be Humbled!

Always speak kindly.
Everyday, choose to love.

How To Save A Life

This is one of my favorite songs. I discovered this from watching Grey’s Anatomy. First time I heard it, I loved it already. If you watch Grey’s Anatomy, you know it’s so perfect for the series.

This is the official video:

SOS! Help Me Personalize My WordPress Blog!

I actually love blogging! If only people who visit my site will leave comments and suggestions, then I’d love it so much more!

Only thing is, I have yet to learn how to personalize the appearance of my blog site. You see, I’m not so good with reading instructions and manuals. For example, when buying furnitures or cabinets from Ikea, more often than not, I just look at the wood panels, slots and screws and I instantly know how to install them. Of course, if I find myself clueless and stuck, and I can see no other option, I deign to read the manuals, and voila, wonder of wonders, it’s all there!

Will someone please help me how to personalize this sweet blog of mine???

A Sweet Escape

A secret place, a sweet escape, a hiding place and nobody cries, there’s only butterflies…the sun’s on my side, take me for a ride, I smile up to the sky, I know I’ll be alright.

Those are some of the words that made me love Natasha Bedingfield’s song, “A Pocketfull of Sunshine”. The way she sings it makes me feel like I could fly off to some far away, secret place that nobody knows. A sweet escape.

Bangkok Pictures

I’m not a photo buff but when I went to Bangkok, in Chatuchak, I enjoyed taking pictures. Here are some of the photos I took with my humble Olympus digital camera.

It actually works!

Okay, I’ll admit it. There is really something about this positive thinking-winning attitude-you get what you think about-new age theories. It’s a very long Chinese Lunar New Year holiday and I was wary about this long weekend. So I decided to fool myself into believing that I’ll be enjoying the long holiday. And guess what, I am enjoying it!

As long as I have things to do, places to go and people to meet, I’m okay. Yesterday, I had a nice breakfast with Faye, went shopping for groceries, watched a movie, slept and went swimming.

Today, I cooked breakfast, indulged myself with chocolates, will watch a movie and will go to the beach in Sentosa later with my friends. We’re hoping to buy tickets to the opening of Universal Studios Singapore also. So far, a lazy weekend and I’m loving it!